I've spent the last week and a half in deep contemplation about this last year of my life. This is pretty typical for me this time of year. There's something about the changing of numbers from year to year that makes me pause. I'm sure it does for most of us. It's this weird vortex where we often forget what day it is and the week seems to fly by and before we know it, we are here, with the promise of a new year laid out in front of us. What I've been thinking most about this time around, is how do I honor the previous and also create the new? How do I reflect and see and learn from 2020, and then take that reflecting learning and seeing to make something that propels me forward? Below is my process for finishing one year and starting the next.
Step 1: Reflect. Look back on the previous year. What did you celebrate? Build? Learn? Create? Lose? Gain? Suck at? It's important to look at it from all angles.
In 2020 I celebrated:
- 3 new engagements in my family!
-4 new babies born within our close circle of friends
-2 pregnancy announcements from dear friends
- Taking yoga classes ALL OVER the globe!
- Starting 1 Yoga Teaching Collective
In 2020 I failed at:
- getting people to sign up for a program I launched
- reaching my goal of holding a handstand for more then 1/2 a second
- getting veterans to stay here successfully at our property
- apologizing to the people I need to apologize to
- speaking my truth 100% of the time
- being 100% good with social distancing (just being honest)
- listening more than speaking
In 2020 I built:
- 2 creative spaces to do yoga: an outdoor stage and a shipping container
- 1 pull-up bar for working out
- and GREW my business
- a stronger marriage
In 2020 I learned:
- how to do a kipping pullup
- how to do double unders on a jump rope
- how to up my handstand game
- I am more resilient that I knew
- to trust myself on a whole new level
- how to create and send a newsletter
- how to build and manage a website
- how to teach effectively on Zoom
- how to make sourdough bread
- I can teach and practice ANYWHERE.
In 2020 I let go of:
- Working with a business that was no longer serving my best interests
- Controlling people and/or outcomes I have no control over
- fretting over people/relationships that ultimately didn't matter or had no impact on my life
- resentment and guilt
In 2020 1:
- taught 331 classes
- sent 34 newsletters
- read 25 1/2 books
- completed 5 puzzles
Just like any other year, there was a lot of celebration and accomplishment and also a lot of sadness and hard times and letting go. Even amidst a pandemic, I was reminded that the years go on and really we're always in this dance of holding grief and joy, letting go and holding on, creating ease and working our asses off. It just takes different shapes and forms year to year.
Once, I reflect on the year, I move to step 2: Set Intentions for the year ahead.
For me personally, this comes in the form of one word. It's been a tradition now for 5 years, started by a dear mentor of mine. From my reflection, I think and look toward what I want to create. What am I hoping to manifest? What I am hoping to see by the end of the next year? What would make me happy looking back a year from now?
I always say the word chooses me. I might pick it, and yet it always surprises me with the ways it weaves itself into my life. This year, my word is COURAGE. I saw this process of being courageous begin for me this year. Believe it or not, I can be a pretty timid person when it comes to approaching hard conversations or owning up to my stuff. I'm a peacekeeper. I like to keep the peace. I like to keep everybody happy.
This year has shown me that keeping everybody else happy costs me my own happiness.
So I've started toward the waters of courage. I've put my big toe in. This year, I'm diving in fully. I'm dunking my head under. That is my intention this year.
Step 3: Take ACTION